Back to Work!

Hi Guys!

So I know the last few posts have just been me rambling about my life and feelings- so I thought you guys deserved an art update as well.  I just got back to school 2 weeks ago and started projects in 2 of my studio classes:

Here's my advanced drawing sketch done in oil pastel on the back of my sketchbook - thinking of making a series of these little suckers.  I combined references of my friend covered in a blanket with these wax-like dripping forms in the foreground.  I want to see how far I can push this into a fantastical landscape of sorts...we'll see. 

This is my newest piece for my advanced painting class - one that I'm exceptionally proud of.  After a week of no ideas, I just sketched that little doodle on top while I was waiting for class to start and then I banged out the base layer of the painting in the next 3 hours.  That's the most productive class period I've ever had according to my professor - and I'd have to agree with her.  Hopefully getting a reference picture for the neck biting today...just hope the guy modeling doesn't see the finished piece....I kinda made him a demon/parasite thing with pincers for hands and a twisted/ snake-like form.  I know it seems hard to believe when looking at the painting- but I don't hate the guy - my professor just challenged me to see how dark I can make my artwork and I never step back from a challenge.  I think this piece also represents a lot of the frustration I've been feeling regarding my health and also my fear that people are judging me (for other reasons entirely).  Surprisingly enough, I've started to open up more this semester.  I'm finally finding people I trust that I can confide in and I'm really getting pumped for this semester.  So until the next update - I'll see you later! 

Another Semester Done!

Hey guys,
Woohoo! I did it! Finished up another semester of college and I'm still alive and kicking.  This semester was honestly the hardest one for me yet - not academically, but just socially.  I lost my 2 best friends/ex roommates from college because of a disagreement/misunderstanding that they just couldn't get past.  They ignored me and gave me the silent treatment for a month before they broke things off completely.  They turned another friend against me and completely ruined my Halloween - (or at least they wold have if not for a very comforting makeout session at 3am).  Now, one won't even make eye contact with me and the other can only talk/message me when she's drunk or high.  The most pitiful part is that after all the stuff they put me through this semester, I still miss them.  Not a day goes by that I don't miss talking to them, or I see something that reminds me of them.
 
So because of all of that depressing craziness, I really don't have anyone I can talk to at them moment - about life as well as my artwork.  I miss having roommates that would always be available for me to talk to whenever I needed advice or a shoulder to cry on - or just people I can hang out with in general.  I hope that by joining more clubs I can make more friends - and I can only hope that this time they might last longer than a year or two.

On a happier note - I got my first kiss- woohoo! But with that comes a whole new set of problems and things for me to worry about...ugh.  But at the same time, I'm glad I have someone I can usually count on.  He's come through so many times these past few months - even coming out to see me in the middle of the night to offer me a jacket during a fire drill - and I'm really thankful for that.

A lot of things are up in the air this semester and it's totally not helping my stress levels.  My schedule is insane with 6 classes and a possible internship on Saturdays, and I'm trying to be on 2 dance teams and lead the art section of another club.  I'm also thinking about starting another rotoscope animation project in my "free time" and I'd also love some time to hang with friends.  Last semester, the only free time I had to party was the very last night of the semester - so this semester I also hope my friends' schedules match up with mine (which is HIGHLY unlikely due to my 3 night classes and 2 dance teams - but one can still hope)

I'm also stressed out because I feel like my artwork is starting to go in a new direction.  As much as the corruption of my church bothers me, I feel isolated from it at college and with all of this new drama, it's less present on my mind.  Instead, my artwork MIGHT have gotten a little darker since I've been having it represent more of my current feelings and problems.  For example, I just finished up a slightly gory neck painting to show how I feel exposed and vulnerable.  I did another piece that showed me hunched over on the floor with my back exposed and spikes coming out of it as well.  Next semester, I have a lot of stuff to figure out and I just hope that everything works out for the better.  I'll try to post more this semester if I get the chance- and hopefully post actual updates on artworks instead of just rants about my life.  See you guys later - Wish me luck!